blogsonae

i'm in a bit of a quandary--i've allowed my blogsona (blog-persona) to be infiltrated by people in my everyday life, and although i never really expected it to, it's causing me to remain silent on just about every subject. it's not even really as though i have anything to hide, it's just that i'm not sure i feel like discussing it with my tangible friends. on top of that i don't want to jeopardize the school because someone gets the wrong (or even right) end of the stick.

i learned a lot about the people around me this summer. one of the most surprising things was that most people really aren't as up-front as they want everyone around them to believe. i know, i know, you're thinking, "duh. can you say naive?" yeah, but i'm not actually *that* naive, it's a bit more complex than that. self-protectionism is, apparently, the way of the world, even with something as seemingly innocuous (and, quite frankly, good for the community), as a new school. people don't generally like to stick their necks out. and i can see why. it's not an easy road. and see, now, just having dropped that tiny tidbit is going to make people wonder who, exactly, it is that i'm talking about. the truth is that whomever it is will know, and i'm not particularly secretive about my feelings on this subject, or any other, IRL either, so what's the problem? i'm just not sure. i think it makes my blog seem less like my blog somehow because i'm suddenly much more self-conscious about what's on here.

i've considered starting over. going over to another blog server and beginning again.

but then i can't take all of you with me (all two of you who are left, that is!!) and i like it here with my groovy mom masthead and all that. not to mention the fact that i've been moxiemomma for yeaaaaaaaaaaars now. before i even began the blog that was my internet persona. i just don't think i'm prepared to give it up. any thoughts? ideas? suggestions?

Labels: blogger's block, paranoia

Comments

[liz]

Leggy password protected her blog and didn't give the password to people who know her IRL.

[Heather]

I agree L, just password protect your blog. Of course you have to give me the password :)

[MomToTracyNSheri]

I say, screw 'em if they can't take a joke.Lots of peeps in my RL read my blog. When they get all touchy, I say, "Hey, it's a blog. Get over it."

[LoriLaurieLauri]

I can see how that would be a problem...sorta like getting 'dooced'. lol!Lots of my friends and family read my blog, but I don't say anything I wouldn't say to their faces...not that I have anything bad to say about anyone. Well...except my mother-in-law, and that's her own fault. And if I could come up with words that described how disappointed I am, in the way she treats my children, I would say it to her face anyway. But...I'm "just" a SAHM...don't have anyone to bitch about who could put me out of a job or my livelihood. And I do miss your posts! So, I third the motion for a password protected blog as long as I can still get in!

[The Mater]

Oh gosh, haven't been around in a while but here you are all angsty ... don't throw the baby out with the bathwater ... as your friends above advise: keep blogging!Hope the school endeavor is going well and maybe you can refocus your attention now on some other blogworthy events. Don't let the naysayers get you down.

[Andrea]

I haven't got any advice for you, but if you ever figure it out, let me know.

[Lisa S.]

I totally get what you are saying. I'm a new reader so I hope I can find the breadcrumbs if you close up shop. I found you from Breed em and Weep! I love your blog! WRITE ON SISTER.

From one Lisa to another!